Crippled ...

I am crippled by fear of failure right now. 

I've got something that I feel I HAVE to do and every part of me is torn in two directions.

The first direction is my need to do this thing. To take a chance, a leap of faith and prove to myself that I can overcome my self doubt.

The other direction is much more sinister. I can see every which way this particular decision can go wrong from the moment I make it. And I can't come to an inner peace with this war waging. My gut is churning. This decision is going to be a multi-step process and I've completed the first step twice now.... and then deleted it.

Out of fear.

 Too many things could go wrong if I followed through. I guess if I were to examine my thoughts carefully I would find that that there is no way this choice would have a favorable outcome for me, so it might be wise to abandon it to the recesses of my mind.

I am so at war with myself. And I could use some guidance. 

Any of my friends willing to talk this out with me I would really appreciate help/direction.